Cutting Out Caffeine.


I know what you’re thinking…”how can you cut out caffeine?! That’s blasphemous!”. I never in a million years thought I’d give up caffeine but believe it or not it’s done me the world of good.

It all started when one day I had the worst stomach and chest pains I’ve ever had and I got taken to hospital in an ambulance. It was a whirlwind of blood tests and ECGs to monitor my heart and see if it  was anything sinister. Luckily, it wasn’t my heart or my lungs but probably something to do with my stomach. So I googled my symptoms (as you do these days haha!) and found that they seemed to point towards gastro-oesophageal reflux disease (GORD). I did some research to find out if there was anything I could do to help stop these pains from happening and eliminating caffeine came up every time!

I am a huge lover of diet coke, coffee, normal tea, green tea and to hear that I couldn’t have these anymore upset me to say the least! Just to put it into perspective, and this is bad I know, but I used to have around 3 cans of diet coke a day and then I’d mostly have coffee at the weekend. I found the nicest coffee by Little’s (pictured above) that my lovely sister bought me for my birthday and sadly I couldn’t drink it anymore.

Another piece of this puzzle is the fact that for the longest time I’ve had anxiety. I had panic attacks too and for anyone who has panics attacks you’ll know what it’s like, it feels like you’re going to pass out or have a heart attack or something!

So, anyway, I cut out the caffeine completely. I stopped drinking diet coke, I stopped having my lovely coffees *cries* and I started drinking more water. I’ve always drank at least 2 litres a day but I found myself drinking even more which can only be a good thing.

At first I felt really tired and soooo grouchy! I didn’t really put two and two together until my housemate said “maybe you’re having caffeine withdrawals?!” Light bulb moment… I was most definitely suffering from caffeine withdrawals!! That lasted for around a week I’d say and then once that passed I noticed something pretty amazing…

My anxiety has always been worse in the mornings, usually as soon as I wake up. It often has me fearing the worst for the day ahead and pretty much every fear I have decides to beat me over the head until I’m left in a bit of a daze trying to get ready for work. However, after cutting out caffeine these feelings were significantly lessening! I thought to myself “no way, this has to just be a coincidence” so I googled it (I think I should stop googling things so much) and found something quite interesting. There has been a lot of research into the effect caffeine has on anxiety. According to what I’ve read, caffeine stimulates your central nervous system and therefore can replicate the same symptoms as an anxiety attack. The heart pounding, the increase in breathing, the shakes etc. Interesting right?!

So basically I’ve been living caffeine free now for around 2 months and I can honestly say if you have anxiety it will do you the world of good. Obviously it’s not the be all and end all, but it definitely helped me. I get the odd day where I wake up feeling anxious but for the most part I am actually okay.

Thanks for reading.

Anxiety is nothing but repeatedly reexperiencing failure in advance. What a waste.

                                             – Seth Godin

Self Love.

Something I want to talk about in this post is the power of self love.

For the longest time I’ve looked for love in all things other than myself. I still do. But one of my goals in 2016 has been to learn how to love me for me. I’m pretty good at being in my own company, but whether I love being in my own company is a different matter.

This year I have taken steps to losing weight and I have lost 2 stone so far. Although it has actually helped me on my quest for self love, it’s definitely not the definitive answer. It has made me proud of myself for actually sticking to something for once. I’m a Gemini, as my blog name suggests, and Gemini’s are known for getting bored and changing their minds about things a lot! So, that is a major achievement in my books. However, for me, it’s not just about learning to love what I see in the mirror but learning to love what is on the inside. The rest will fall into place (I’m hoping).

My search for self love will continue to consist of a few things:

  1. Looking for the good in myself.
  2. Knowing that my mistakes are not ME.
  3. Stop beating myself up.
  4. Remembering how far I’ve come.
  5. Live in the now.

If you’re looking for that one person to change your life, look in the mirror. 

                                                 – Unknown